Everything and Nothing.

Right now I feel as if I have everything and nothing.

Everything.
Fairly Happy
Family life is good.
Boyfriend.
New lovely friends who make me laugh.
Best friend.
I'm only 18.
Healthy.

Nothing.
Sometimes I'm really unhappy
( I hide it)
I hate my job.
I have  no money.
All my savings are basically gone.
I'm not going to school.
I feel like I'm wasting away at age 18.

Good news, My uncle is coming up sometime this month. I want to move with him.
I want to leave. I feel like its just not right for me to be here anymore. I'm no longer happy.
I feel like I don't have much of a purpose or that my life is going much anywhere.

I was with my Ualbany friends today, they want me to go. I don't want to. I don't like to campus. Its too ghetto, not really clean and honestly overpriced. One other thing I never took my SATS and you know what? I never will. I don't want to. I think Its a scam and I don't want to waste my time. Majority because I'm far too lazy to do it now and I don't want to go to a 4 year university. I rather go to a community college first I wouldn't mind too much. I'd save so much money. Plus, I'm already going to marry a rich foreign man... what the hell.

Oh and to top it off my once perfect skin and complexion. Out the door. I need a drastic change for myself and for the better. sun kissed sin, sunnys and beach here I come.