And the leaves will fall...

Yesterday was great, I had a interview at 2 pm at PS from aeropostale. As I said before it was a group interview which for some reason I got a bit more nervous, It took about a half an hour, from picking out outfits to talking about why we would like to work for the company. It was probably the most fun interview I ever had but since I haven't been on any for retail it was quite a difference experience all together. I left honestly not feeling to great about it, there was a weird feeling in my stomach that I possibly wasted my time. Not even two hours later I got a call back saying I got the job. I was over joyed to come for a simple application the day before and then get the job the next day, I feel like that rarely happens but, I oh so desperately needed a job. So after being home I went over to my lovey's( my best gay man's) house to tell him the good news. Feeling a bit tired and thinking my brother was home by himself, I went home an hour and a half later and found my mom and him home together. I asked him if he wanted to go out to dinner with me, he refused the invitation. He's been acting rather weird lately, any other time he would of jumped on the idea of going out with me. But, whatever I can't take offence to it, he just started growing a bit of a shadow on his upper lip and suddenly hes too good for me, 12 year olds these days. Anyway I called up my cousin and asked her if she would like to go and ofcourse I knew she wouldent turn me down. We went out for pizza and just gossiped about her new school year and potential new boy. To be in highschool again, it feels so werid not going to any kind of school, to be honest its kind of nice just having a job and it not being summer but I honestly feel very out of my element. And, a bit lost to where I will be heading the next few months. I suppose time and fate will all bring me in the right direction but, being me this ticks me off. I always have a plan and when I make big plans they happen. This one didnt and it really makes me wonder why not, I had such high hopes moving to Ithaca, getting out of this town. Not that I don't appreciate it, I always have, I just want a change, new surrounding, new people and a nice new fresh feeling to life. I also was excited about getting into better shape there, I really wanted to tone up and possibly lose some weight I get kind of lazy when I'm stuck in a rut. I kind of felt that way all summer. But now its fall, the leaves turn beautiful colors and then they drop dead on the pavement. I want to be that beautiful leaf that drops some inches. I'm small already so not much weight will come off of me, I suppose toning up will have to be a good goal. Now to sign up to bally fitness which is located at the mall I'll be working at, it will be conveinant and will motivate me being right there. As if I might feel guilty if I go by it and not work out. I should probably write down goals that I should stick to as well. Hopefully I stick with a plan. It might do me some good.